Sorting through my loose change today

it dawned upon me that I miss handling Australian currency. The notes...the larger-sized coins...oh I miss the humongous 50 cent!

Holy crap. Ain't I lucky to have left Mel earlier,

or fear bringing H1N1 in, like the guy has. (The two guys actually.)

The chirpy Ang Moh voice at Bigpond customer service seems to have transported me back there,

for that moment. it's quite surreal really

Since my last post on May the 19th

Havin a great great time with you.

白刀子进，

红刀子出！

Currently I've got physical wounds on my right leg and my left foot

But it's absolutely nothing compared to the hurt associated with being sniped at by cowards hiding behind their computer screens.
I've been administered a big dose of Australian arrogance today...
Quitters who've migrated to Australia actually.
For those ah-peks who function like they're on male menopause and act snarky towards me,
*Pokes pins into your personalised effigy voodoo doll*
I curse a terrible horrible death upon you.
Evaluate yourself, you behave like you're really asking for this.
Fuck you and go and die lah!

I got told off many times today

By ex-Singapore citizens who have quit to Australia.
Why didn't they die in the bushfires or something.
Ok need to go, my foot is oozing blood.

I am stranded

And many voices booming around me, frustrated lah!!!

人潮汹涌，水泄不通

Makes me have the urge to shrink in size, grow skinnier so that I can squeeze my way through the maddening crowds EVERYWHERE. .......

Jolin Tsai seeking Mr. Right

xin.sg - Wednesday, April 29

"Jolin says: Where is my boyfriend?
That was the MSN message that Jolin Tsai had for Stefanie Sun.

As she inches towards her 30s, Tsai is feverishly promoting herself as being available. Watching her friends Stefanie Sun and A-mei basking in love, Tsai looks forward to love but regrettably, her Mr. Right is still nowhere in sight. A religious man whom her friend match-made her with, shrunk back immediately on hearing her name. "I don't want a queen!" Afraid that he could not match up to her status, the prospective suitor rejected the match-making session.

With friends entering marriage and parenthood, Tsai is also eager to join her friends in the league. With no plans for children previously, Tsai only wanted to keep a pet with her boyfriend but has changed her mind and now has a burning desire to have her own children. "I have a dietician and determination. I'm sure I'll be able to shed the weight and recover my figure after giving birth!" she says, perhaps hinting at the reason for not wanting children at first.

Tsai revealed she hopes to hold her wedding at the beach with a simple ceremony and a celebratory party. After marriage, she may consider fading out of showbiz and refocus her career on perhaps a manicure and facial business."

Good thing Jolin ain't in Melbourne with her current state of mind (see title). For everywhere she turn she will see couples basking in their PDA. That will reduce her into running on auto pilot one I assure you.

"I was forced to marry at 14"

"She was expected to wear clothes that covered every inch of body and grow her hair long, while tattoos, body piercing, make-up, modern music and television were banned. She spent her spare time listening to sermons and was shut off from the outside world."

I thought I had it bad, and then I found out that I wasn't alone. But her former predicament was without a doubt worse.

Read on to find out why. This coming from time to time from the FLDS cult...sigh.

Running on empty

Always on the verge of crying.

No more teens in this household as the youngest hits the big 2-0 today.

Wah everything's maturing, moving on.
Exactly two months later it will be my turn!
Damn!

Lim Pei Teng Lai Liao! n/t

Now I can recall why I was always so eager to return to SG on those holiday trips

because certain individuals here had inflicted an immeasurable amount of pain upon me.
An innocent victim.
BRIMSTONE AND HELLFIRE!!!!!

Men have balls dunno for what man.

via skysignal

Grouphug post 470389710

"It’s just a usual heartbreak story.

I went abroad for several months, and there I met her. We started to go out. At first I didn’t think it was so serious. But I saw that she was madly in love with me. And I started to love her more and more. She became everything for me. The One. We both thought it was our destiny. When I went home, we promised each other to wait. I knew I would see her in about a year, and then, maybe in about three or four years I would be able to go to work in her country, and then we would be able to get married. Then it all seemed to be almost decided.

After I left home, we went on writing letters to each other, calling each other every day. And suddenly, after nearly half a year, she told me that she was now in love with another guy. I was devastated, I was broken. I never knew that one can feel such pain. I was thinking of committing suicide, and the only thing that prevented me from doing that was that I knew that it would be too cruel to my relatives, my friends, and maybe to her too.

Several weeks have passed. It still hurts like hell, though I don’t cry every day anymore. I still feel like I used to have a future, a dream - and now I have none. What is most painful is that maybe subconsciously I knew that our love was doomed from the very beginning."

It's like I'm seeking to join Heartbreakees Anonymous.

Men spend more time gossiping than women,

poll finds.

"Men spend an average 76 minutes a day tittle-tattling with their friends or work colleagues, compared to just 52 minutes for women... Women also love to talk about news, but rather than focusing on politics or government issues, news about soap operas and celebrities are more likely to cause a debate.

MEN'S GOSSIP TOPICS
1. Drunken friends
2. News
3. Old school friends
4. Female colleagues at work
5. The sexiest girl at work
6. Spreading rumours
7. Promotions
8. Sexual relationships
9. Salaries
10. The boss

WOMEN'S GOSSIP TOPICS
1. Other women
2. News
3. Relationship problems
4. Other people's relationships
5. Sexual relationships
6. Friend's weight gain
7. Soap operas
8. Other women's boyfriends / husbands
9. The mother-in-law
10. Celebrities"

Yea, how could I not agree with this poll? Especially in light of recent events that have TRAUMATISED me, can. BrRrr!

Heartache that wouldn't dissipate

In the end, fingers somehow still manage to end up pointing at you, blaming you Dichotomy, faulting you on unverified half-truths. In this instance, who on earth will give a flying heck about your suffering?

"只剩挥散不去的难过"

Meaning lingering sadness, the lyrics of Jay Chou's 枫 put it so well.

I am crrraving for some mint tea

I swear some Twinings' Peppermint green tea right now would solve my life problems.

The tears that I shed are hot

Because I am so ANGRY, at how you have tried to make your point across in that asshole self-superior manner, at the expense of other people's feelings and dignity.

A dagger driven through my heart, one which never had availability for who you merely ASSUMED it did bloody room. Oh, and how come those clever assumptions didn't spread to considering how fragile it is huh?

Hurt.

乌云在我们心里刻下一块阴影

我聆听沉寂已久的心情

过往温柔 已经被时间上锁

只剩挥散不去的难过

Some things in life are just so sad.

But the moment of breakthrough -

comes with the epiphany that I define what 自立更生 means.

The act of 'my parents' coming down for my graduation

induces a tirade of emotions in me that make me want to go drown myself. As I'm currently feeling now that theý're down here.

You know why I'm leaving?

I feel I'm too fierce to coexist with the people of Melbourne. Different sociology!

The most gratifying pack of sushi I bought today at QV, omggg

For the price of $11 I was still definitely oversupplied, such succulent and never-seen before thickass slices of fresh tender meat.

Even the wasabi rocks big time and an overconsumption of it didn't result in me cringing. And yeah, for the different structural make-up of sushi/sashimi (filling), it was salmon salmon all the way!

It's so fit for me lah, most satisfying jap food ever, Oiishi!

Went into Myer at Chaddy and came out with a price-slashed figure-flattering chio white shirt

for my graduation ceremony, and for job interviews too. Woohoo :D

Yummy avacados

I love them in my salads and sushi!

我的世界 变得奇妙更难以言喻

还以为 是从天而降的梦境!

A RAY OF HOPE!

*:D*

FUCKING STONED. n/t

Usually when I add contacts on facebook, I’d attach with my invite

a message on how I know 'em. Well, being on break at present unfortunately means that my mental capacity is diminishing slightly, and my mind not focused enough to type a precision message.

And, (seeing that I was logged in) and adding one on a whim, resulted in a flowery message that addressed some girl as babe, so no surprises there if she didn’t add me.

Okay, so you are not a babe, and it’s alright to snub me lah. Next time I’ll put more thought into my hastily crafted messages…
also, try not to bitch about me to mutual friends k?

Or I’d add you as “the bitch I knew from back then”,
with the latter noun standing true.

So I’m feeling delightfully surprised

for I’ve just huat (发) not once, but twice in a row...双喜临门!!

My cold weather fatigue is back

sibei jialat.

Saturday night on my hotline socialising

yakety yak!

I don't understand why it's I that's being punished, when it's you that's being presumptious?

And that is the cue for me to walk out and never look back.

The change-of-seasons cold weather fatigue, I can sense it returning!

I never fail to be afflicted by it every time in every year that I'm here.

I feel cold,

and scared.

I can't control what other people think of me

but I can control whether or not I want to hear it.

ASS-U-ME

Assuming has made an ass out of you and me. F.M.L., and F.U.!

Dichotomy is lost at sea n/t

Back from today's excursion to the city

where every fucking corner I turn, there'd be the sighting of "exhibition of PDA", as Kutu puts it.

From the beginning and right from the start, I never wanted to stay on in Melbourne

And that is the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

Thought processes of another being (4)

Articulated here to show my disgust at the obscenity of this place,
the obscenity of it all. Fucking damn atrocious lah!

Watch the face fall! Check out the cui facial expression (3)

Need to calm down, smoke my pipe, ponder. I be adept at devising some grand scheme that involves saving her ass (so that I can fuck it). Aside from crediting me with this piece of info, other characters don't matter. So I'll just will them to wayang around...for at the end of the day, it's all about self-preservation and my self interests yea?

来如春梦几多时，去似朝云无觅处？ (2)

I fear this enjoyment may be but transient! Fuck!

I have always been a flop with chicks, but after ingesting some Love Potion No. 9...(hahaha) (1)

I finally got a girl to make me smile, and not to mention fuck her like a jackhammer!!! HOWEVER, my problems do not end here

Melbourne ain't for singles

If you are, shoot yourself dead now as a preventive measure - against unmerciful exhibitionists who delight in discriminating against your single status. Pull the trigger dear.

Traumatising!

:O

HOW TO COPE WITH CRISIS???!!! n/t

My heart just plunged

Plunged like the stockmarkets

OH MY GODDD

I'm riding on a rollercoaster, I can't take ittt
*screams my ass off*
stop this NOWwW!

Listen, Oz -

It's not that you aren't good. It's just that, you have never usurped Sg's ranking as the country that I favour more all this damn while. Yeah. *sniff*

Work in Australia

There's a decent suitable job that I can apply for, and 100% will get - but I dowan !!!

To have fallen through the cracks in the system

In that aspect, I know every bit of what it feels like. Thankfully the other system is more user-friendly

Didn't say hi when you saw me eh, stranger？

但。。这可是彼此所熟悉的陌生人，对不？

For one who just received the shock of her life

I sure am phrasing things very nicely. Or maybe it's due to the fact that this only sunk in a few days down the road after it happened.

But as what the previous title suggests

The silver lining I caught sight of made a colour transition leh, to gold
这何尝不是一件好事？

Extrication from complication

Because the moment of truth's already presented itself to me in the most random manner. I SAW liao. Making it a triple whammy, FML!

It's challenging to look glamour when

You're supposed to be liquidating all your assets

That merely being a defence mechanism to create a gobsmack reaction

So that you could shut the hell up. Lacing venom under the guise of nicotinising to alleviate pain, who won this verbal war? Me lah.

Despite all the BS I spout about narcotinising

I swear I really am good as gold.

而夏天还是那么短，思念却很长...

入秋了.

New month, new changes

One of which is alterin' my style of bloggin', oh but not like that lah

In one of those rare moments

Where my life is good.

Life is good.

Yea~~

Recently.., I got this big blessing bestowed upon me

And I am at peace with my decision.

The more I think about it

The more I realise how much of (dare I say, effortless) fun I had in Canberra

In the hands of a good host of course.

*smiles*

Unlike how it was an uphill task to merely communicate with a bunch of unfamiliar beings,

That one resulting in unexplainable frustration.

幸福 as explained by Yue Niang and Yu Zhu

This episode dishes out some enlightenment...

2am watching 《小娘惹》

This part caught my attention : "I'm not a commodity for you to pick and choose" - Shanben Yueniang

And she runs away from this blind fix-up that was distasteful to her dignity, and none of her idea.

Oh damn. Producers, you could've cast me in for this scene!

With the death of my portable music devices

For once I am walking around with my ears naked from the sound of music

I then realise that all around Melbourne is alive with the sounds of kissing/lip pecking, mang! Well not super hardcore, but a common enough phenomenon...(I know it's rather retarded to observe this only now)

Even at eating establishments, they supposed to use their mouths to EAT their food,

I can't even eat without being spared from those goddamn sounds a few tables away.

I consider my food very sensual leh...I ask myself, are those people attempting to steal my food's thunder with their try-too-hard-to-make-a-statement of sensuality.

Babies are gifts from heaven,

So they say.

And so I am starting to believe.

I forsee myself ending up with 0.0 offspring in the place I'm choosing to live in.

This isn't news.

But what I contemplated years ago living in that same place.

"It's complicated".

But SHIT la, this is what other people had imposed upon me (based on their prior incorrect assumptions).

It could go one direction and all is jolly, well and good.

But I'm choosing to let it go the opposite direction...flush it down the toilet.

Currently going through one of the most confusing stages of my life, nothing is absolutely certain

I don't want to straddle two ships, because I have the intention to jump back to my own (homebase) in due time, and in the process giving up anything promising on the other.

How could something turn out so complicated like fuck?

So I've witnessed with the so-called “new friends”.

Makes me realise how I take for granted the superb ease of getting along with my old friends.

Got intimidated and took flight from the new, descended interstate into the arms of my old,

Behold the contrast! 姜还是老的辣..

Seeing that it's the same me within the span of that week, c'mon people, gotta look at the external determining factors already.

Variety of negative emotions all rolled into one

Manifesting in an irregular heartbeat.

I don't want to go through another cold season cycle

I DON'T WANT TO!

At a time of Singaporean exodus to the land down under,

I am instead moving back up.

A lot of judgements, criticism coming my way, fo sho

Wth lah, just get plugs for they'll come in handy.

Transported to my childhood days -

Marmite, or known here as Vegemite

rocks my socks

Me love Vegemite!

Shan't even bother, even if the whole issue is riddled with misunderstanding

All a projection of their own individual realities.

You don't need to play second fiddle to anyone

Especially with those who disrespect you.

>>Option Dichotomy access denied, okay well we have to keep pressing ahead, with one goal in mind: for the benefit of our fellow associate. Oh is that a new target I spotted already!

As for this failed experiment, we'll just discard her away like chopped liver.>> Tell her to wait, and then fong fei gei on the wretch

"Never treat anyone as a priority who sees you as an option."

And that's one of them reasons why I'm not going back as long as I can help it.

Reality's descended upon me like a cold hard slap in the face

I'm still reeling.

There is one very dishonest fucker, a new arrival

Who wants to live in this studio apartment block and (insists, without asking me) that I sponsor his/her electricity. Either that or he/she is plain fucking dumb. Maybe good enough to power a washer, but not good enough to recognise numbers. Had this idiot's wash load powered by plugging into Unit 3 (my) circuit, thus far is the second round I've witnessed this cheating. PUI!

This makes me recall what an Australian who once told me ''This is Australia, we operate on trust''. I left the mains powered up even when I left for my interstate trip. After all, better up than down in case I fuck up the interior of my fridge like XX.

(Brief trip I made, but how about its timing, ala the weekend). My exercise of this laxness would make any thief's eyes light up with glee at how many opportunities are present for him/her to tan dio

How to have faith in humanity like this? Just when I was mildly beating myself up for not being enthusiastic enough in making friends, this happens to reinforce my set behavioural traits.

I have a rough idea of who you are. You stepped on a tigress' toes repeatedly, so I'm telling you fucker to watch out, for I have run out of patience.

Not always a g'day in Australia

For the time that I've been out just now, I've already seen three spats happen back to back. Hot under the collar caller on the phone, very tense customer service at Nokia care, Road rage at the T-junction, all between Aussies.

Thankfully my round at the Nokia care counter turned out to be a pleasant and beautiful experience. Definitely one of my defining moments for today

(Which resulted in one of the rare moments where I didn't get indignantly agitated when a hawt dude checked me out repeatedly.., which is saying something).

They see grace, I see crass.

Today while in line to pay for my graduation ceremony peep-toe heels, there was a caucasian couple who kissed and kissed and kissed behind me.

Obviously eyes do not grow at the back of my head.

So after setting eyes on the lone wolf right ahead of them in the queue, they were doing their fucking darnest to simulate lip smacking sounds to clearly put across the message that they pity me for not being them, for standing in the queue and paying for my purchase alone.

This harmless innocent action of shopping of mine, has never felt so wrong until the day these two fuckers stood behind me.

Since I came back from my Canberra trip, I only (over)heard kissing sounds wherever the air's more still in Melbourne. In the skybus, in the city...

And this is where the recent stepped-down Malaysian MP's quote comes in: "This constitutes a gross outrage on my modesty, a gross invasion of my privacy, and in particular the sanctity of my personal life".

Her statement just needs to be tweaked a tad bit to suit my context and there you have my feelings put across nicely.

So yah the society is damn gracious can. Now you try to assume yourself in my position. This incident as a case study will see this society being ranked right up there -> #1 for being full of grace (?)

But if you don't like to lie...and when I say it's fucked up (got pun), I'm sure you'll agree with me.

Nude photos and videos scandal

“This constitutes a gross outrage on my modesty, a gross invasion of my privacy, and in particular the sanctity of my personal life,” she said (see statement in full below).

via http://www.fieldoflove.net/2009/02/elizabeth-wongs-nude-photos-and-videos.html

I like how she articulated her agony. Shit happens in life no? I'll elaborate more in my next post.

Back from the airport today

While taking the train from Southern Cross Station (city loop),

This east a***n food outlet girl worker came in from Melbourne Central Station and sat across me.

She was picking her nose directly in my line of vision as the train crossed several stations in the SE suburbs.



Is there any wonder why I don't posses a sense of belonging to,

Nor wish at all to assume any sort of identity (read: *****, or *******)?

*grimaces*

Wave after wave of the feeling of being deeply misunderstood

It never ends.

Damn fucking excited to be in Canberra! n/t

GOOD DAY TODAY n/t

The buzzword here is ''Chronic'',

which explains the untamable huge sense of indignation rising up in me.

Cannot not take it personally,

So yeah!

Yesterday's conversation had these ASSumptions drawn on me:-

That all the achievements I worked for in my life I wasted, with the culmination in a Bachelor of Arts degree. All through this while, I did a BA with confidence that all those other qualifications will prop me up in what I undertake in future - i.e. nothing to fret about.

But yesterday's comments were truly uncalled for, it is a colossal slap to the face when nothing had been done to deserve this. For the duration that I've been acquainted with this person, he has always been chronically obnoxious towards me, never failing to undermine me.

It's the same feeling as having all the assets you've worked for in your life burned into ashes and dust.