Recently.., I got this big blessing bestowed upon me

And I am at peace with my decision.

The more I think about it

The more I realise how much of (dare I say, effortless) fun I had in Canberra

In the hands of a good host of course.

*smiles*

Unlike how it was an uphill task to merely communicate with a bunch of unfamiliar beings,

That one resulting in unexplainable frustration.

幸福 as explained by Yue Niang and Yu Zhu

This episode dishes out some enlightenment...

2am watching 《小娘惹》

This part caught my attention : "I'm not a commodity for you to pick and choose" - Shanben Yueniang

And she runs away from this blind fix-up that was distasteful to her dignity, and none of her idea.

Oh damn. Producers, you could've cast me in for this scene!

With the death of my portable music devices

For once I am walking around with my ears naked from the sound of music

I then realise that all around Melbourne is alive with the sounds of kissing/lip pecking, mang! Well not super hardcore, but a common enough phenomenon...(I know it's rather retarded to observe this only now)

Even at eating establishments, they supposed to use their mouths to EAT their food,

I can't even eat without being spared from those goddamn sounds a few tables away.

I consider my food very sensual leh...I ask myself, are those people attempting to steal my food's thunder with their try-too-hard-to-make-a-statement of sensuality.

Babies are gifts from heaven,

So they say.

And so I am starting to believe.

I forsee myself ending up with 0.0 offspring in the place I'm choosing to live in.

This isn't news.

But what I contemplated years ago living in that same place.

"It's complicated".

But SHIT la, this is what other people had imposed upon me (based on their prior incorrect assumptions).

It could go one direction and all is jolly, well and good.

But I'm choosing to let it go the opposite direction...flush it down the toilet.

Currently going through one of the most confusing stages of my life, nothing is absolutely certain

I don't want to straddle two ships, because I have the intention to jump back to my own (homebase) in due time, and in the process giving up anything promising on the other.

How could something turn out so complicated like fuck?

So I've witnessed with the so-called “new friends”.

Makes me realise how I take for granted the superb ease of getting along with my old friends.

Got intimidated and took flight from the new, descended interstate into the arms of my old,

Behold the contrast! 姜还是老的辣..

Seeing that it's the same me within the span of that week, c'mon people, gotta look at the external determining factors already.

Variety of negative emotions all rolled into one

Manifesting in an irregular heartbeat.

I don't want to go through another cold season cycle

I DON'T WANT TO!

At a time of Singaporean exodus to the land down under,

I am instead moving back up.

A lot of judgements, criticism coming my way, fo sho

Wth lah, just get plugs for they'll come in handy.

Transported to my childhood days -

Marmite, or known here as Vegemite

rocks my socks

Me love Vegemite!

Shan't even bother, even if the whole issue is riddled with misunderstanding

All a projection of their own individual realities.

You don't need to play second fiddle to anyone

Especially with those who disrespect you.

>>Option Dichotomy access denied, okay well we have to keep pressing ahead, with one goal in mind: for the benefit of our fellow associate. Oh is that a new target I spotted already!

As for this failed experiment, we'll just discard her away like chopped liver.>> Tell her to wait, and then fong fei gei on the wretch

"Never treat anyone as a priority who sees you as an option."

And that's one of them reasons why I'm not going back as long as I can help it.

Reality's descended upon me like a cold hard slap in the face

I'm still reeling.

There is one very dishonest fucker, a new arrival

Who wants to live in this studio apartment block and (insists, without asking me) that I sponsor his/her electricity. Either that or he/she is plain fucking dumb. Maybe good enough to power a washer, but not good enough to recognise numbers. Had this idiot's wash load powered by plugging into Unit 3 (my) circuit, thus far is the second round I've witnessed this cheating. PUI!

This makes me recall what an Australian who once told me ''This is Australia, we operate on trust''. I left the mains powered up even when I left for my interstate trip. After all, better up than down in case I fuck up the interior of my fridge like XX.

(Brief trip I made, but how about its timing, ala the weekend). My exercise of this laxness would make any thief's eyes light up with glee at how many opportunities are present for him/her to tan dio

How to have faith in humanity like this? Just when I was mildly beating myself up for not being enthusiastic enough in making friends, this happens to reinforce my set behavioural traits.

I have a rough idea of who you are. You stepped on a tigress' toes repeatedly, so I'm telling you fucker to watch out, for I have run out of patience.

Not always a g'day in Australia

For the time that I've been out just now, I've already seen three spats happen back to back. Hot under the collar caller on the phone, very tense customer service at Nokia care, Road rage at the T-junction, all between Aussies.

Thankfully my round at the Nokia care counter turned out to be a pleasant and beautiful experience. Definitely one of my defining moments for today

(Which resulted in one of the rare moments where I didn't get indignantly agitated when a hawt dude checked me out repeatedly.., which is saying something).

They see grace, I see crass.

Today while in line to pay for my graduation ceremony peep-toe heels, there was a caucasian couple who kissed and kissed and kissed behind me.

Obviously eyes do not grow at the back of my head.

So after setting eyes on the lone wolf right ahead of them in the queue, they were doing their fucking darnest to simulate lip smacking sounds to clearly put across the message that they pity me for not being them, for standing in the queue and paying for my purchase alone.

This harmless innocent action of shopping of mine, has never felt so wrong until the day these two fuckers stood behind me.

Since I came back from my Canberra trip, I only (over)heard kissing sounds wherever the air's more still in Melbourne. In the skybus, in the city...

And this is where the recent stepped-down Malaysian MP's quote comes in: "This constitutes a gross outrage on my modesty, a gross invasion of my privacy, and in particular the sanctity of my personal life".

Her statement just needs to be tweaked a tad bit to suit my context and there you have my feelings put across nicely.

So yah the society is damn gracious can. Now you try to assume yourself in my position. This incident as a case study will see this society being ranked right up there -> #1 for being full of grace (?)

But if you don't like to lie...and when I say it's fucked up (got pun), I'm sure you'll agree with me.

Nude photos and videos scandal

“This constitutes a gross outrage on my modesty, a gross invasion of my privacy, and in particular the sanctity of my personal life,” she said (see statement in full below).

via http://www.fieldoflove.net/2009/02/elizabeth-wongs-nude-photos-and-videos.html

I like how she articulated her agony. Shit happens in life no? I'll elaborate more in my next post.

Back from the airport today

While taking the train from Southern Cross Station (city loop),

This east a***n food outlet girl worker came in from Melbourne Central Station and sat across me.

She was picking her nose directly in my line of vision as the train crossed several stations in the SE suburbs.



Is there any wonder why I don't posses a sense of belonging to,

Nor wish at all to assume any sort of identity (read: *****, or *******)?

*grimaces*

Wave after wave of the feeling of being deeply misunderstood

It never ends.

Damn fucking excited to be in Canberra! n/t

GOOD DAY TODAY n/t

The buzzword here is ''Chronic'',

which explains the untamable huge sense of indignation rising up in me.

Cannot not take it personally,

So yeah!

Yesterday's conversation had these ASSumptions drawn on me:-

That all the achievements I worked for in my life I wasted, with the culmination in a Bachelor of Arts degree. All through this while, I did a BA with confidence that all those other qualifications will prop me up in what I undertake in future - i.e. nothing to fret about.

But yesterday's comments were truly uncalled for, it is a colossal slap to the face when nothing had been done to deserve this. For the duration that I've been acquainted with this person, he has always been chronically obnoxious towards me, never failing to undermine me.

It's the same feeling as having all the assets you've worked for in your life burned into ashes and dust.